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Fangirl to Hoshigaki Kisame
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Love and Fucking Up Big Time

Mon Jul 13, 2009, 9:35 AM
  • Mood: Remorse
  • Reading: Pirates! An Adventure with Scientists!
  • Watching: TV
EDIT: I need a week to think. I need to weigh my anger and my will to give chances. I need to weigh everything.

I fell in love with a friend of mine, gave my first time to him. And then I hurt another friend because I was only seeing one point of view. I told the one I love that I love him and all of his flaws.

And yet I couldn't do that for her. I feel like shit, and I should. I deserve nothing more from her than anger. And yet, she forgives me.

I don't deserve it.

I slept with her ex-boyfriend, and even though I love him dearly, almost so much it hurts, I nearly gave up a friend because I was only seeing his point of view. It'll be hard to keep both of them, but by all the world I'll do it.

I won't choose.

It's not something I should have tried to do anyways.

Inu, I can't hate her. She has flaws, yeah, but we all do. I love you and yours with all I am, and I have to do the same for her.

Neko-imotou... You have no need to forgive me, but the fact that you do makes me realize that I was fucking stupid.

I thought I had to choose. I didn't.

Both of you are people I love. In different ways yes, but love none the less. Both of you are dear to me;.

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  • Current Residence: mum's house and dad's house. (two places at once)
  • Interests: Anime, Manga, writting, drawing, reading.
  • Favourite movie: Lord of the Rings
  • Favourite band or musician: Nightwish
  • Favourite artist: CLAMP and Kazuya Minekura
  • Favourite poet or writer: J. R. R. Tolkien, Garth Nix, Tamora Pierce
  • Favourite style of art: all kinds
  • Operating System: Mac PowerBook
  • MP3 player of choice: classic ipod
  • Shell of choice: a shiny one
  • Wallpaper of choice: Kisame or Zaraki wallpaper
  • Skin of choice: I like the one I have.
  • Favourite game: Okami
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Hoshigaki Kisame
  • Personal Quote: Bravery is not the lack of fear, but the ability to act even if you are afraid.
  • Tools of the Trade: tablet, computer, paper, pencil, pens, colored pencils. Lotsa stuff

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Thanks for the fave, buddy!

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Oh when I/find the controls/I'll go where I like/I'll know where I want to be/but maybe for now/I'll stay right here/on a silent sea
-KT Tunstall
And again. =D

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Oh when I/find the controls/I'll go where I like/I'll know where I want to be/but maybe for now/I'll stay right here/on a silent sea
-KT Tunstall
TOMOOOOOO!!!! How about we have a writing party on like Tueday or Wednesday? Yes? Yes?
Tuesday sounds good to meee. bring laptop and materials ou might need. call me tomorrow to work out details. I"m at mothers.

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I cannot stop role playing. It is impossible for me. An intervention is not a good idea. Seriously. I mean it. It owns my soul. It has eaten it, barfed it up, then eaten it again. More than once.
Yay you called me :) And I will call you again after some more cleaning rampages. Yeah. Whoo mother's... idk... Expect another phone call maybe around 4/4:30, which is when I expect to see mine again
Thanks so much for the fave, darlin'!

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:) thank you for the fav !!

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