EDIT: I need a week to think. I need to weigh my anger and my will to give chances. I need to weigh everything.

I fell in love with a friend of mine, gave my first time to him. And then I hurt another friend because I was only seeing one point of view. I told the one I love that I love him and all of his flaws.

And yet I couldn't do that for her. I feel like shit, and I should. I deserve nothing more from her than anger. And yet, she forgives me.

I don't deserve it.

I slept with her ex-boyfriend, and even though I love him dearly, almost so much it hurts, I nearly gave up a friend because I was only seeing his point of view. It'll be hard to keep both of them, but by all the world I'll do it.

I won't choose.

It's not something I should have tried to do anyways.

Inu, I can't hate her. She has flaws, yeah, but we all do. I love you and yours with all I am, and I have to do the same for her.

Neko-imotou... You have no need to forgive me, but the fact that you do makes me realize that I was fucking stupid.

I thought I had to choose. I didn't.

Both of you are people I love. In different ways yes, but love none the less. Both of you are dear to me;.